unfortunately, to draw hearts in my eyes would be to cliche.

so i've reconsidered where my teenage job will be located at.

best buy.

heaven, baby. heaven! it has movies and music and electronics galore, and to think, if you worked there, you would most likely get a discount on all merchandise. all the movies and music you wanted, o. my. gosh.

plus.
okay, yeah, i did notice how many cute guys are at best buy. have you noticed there are way more decent guys there than at the mall? pff! isn't that something. so not only will i get discounts on my favorite stuff, but be able to look at cute guys all day. *sigh*

I actually feel beautiful.

haley, amanda, and i went to a nice mall today that was more oriented towards adult, sophisticated fashions (but not something like lenox or fifths avenue). haley is this like magician with makeup (seriously, i'm not even kidding), so she took us to the mac and perfume counter at macy's to get glammed up.

we first went around the perfume counter and sampled all of them. of course, i have to get a couple sprits of daisy, and amanda really liked the harajuku lovers stuff. haley likes some prada perfume, but they didn't have it out for sampling (probably because it's uber expensive, haha :D).

then we went to the mac counter, where haley set to work on me. she used this glistening eye shadow and eyeliner, and then this lip makeup (i'm actually not sure what it was, gloss or lipstick...), but it was a little intense, so i wiped that off. i kept the eye makeup, and just gawked at haley's handiwork. then she did amanda, and then herself.

haley said i actually looked pretty, and so did amanda.
i liked how she brushed my cheek bones with this glittery stuff. it looks really nice.

so then, we went to the food court to catch up with my mom, then to dsw shoes, where we tried on heels and boots for fun. i found these really, really pretty ones that i loved and just walked around. and then boots, and i couldn't take them off they were so comfy.

we went back to the mac counter because we decided to buy some, and haley said she was proud of me for spending something on myself this holiday season. xD

i got brown eyeliner, which looks similar to the red one haley used initially for my look. she used eyeshadow, but i figured i wouldn't be able to afford the shadow and the brush, so i didn't get it.

but, i actually feel beautiful. like, for once in my life, i feel confident about my facial features. does makeup do that to you or is it just me? so sad how i feel so brave, but have nowhere to go with this look. but i love it.

i feel strong.

creeeeeeeperrr.....

okay, so there's this guy named tay.
he's a white gangster.
yeah, you know those kids? yeah, i try to avoid them.

so anyway, he's actually pretty funny, but i keep my distance. during the classroom eliminations for the spelling bee, he and i were in the last two, and we battled quite heatedly, and i won. he's a good sport, and congratulated me for winning.

since he is runner-up, he goes to the school spelling bee too. the spelling bee was today, but yesterdy, while i walk past him in lunch, he says, "spelling bee's tomorrow." :grin

what could i do? be mean? i wished him good luck with a smile.

then today, during the spelling bee, he asks me where all the eighth graders were (since he and i were the only ones so far), and i just kind of sat next to him, but not really? i didn't want to be mean, since he hadn't done anything to me.

so then, the competition. woo-hoo, last like four. he got out, so he was on the ground level, below the stage, and he asked me if i was nervous. i said i was shaking, trying to be friendly (almost too friendly).

i win. so during the pictures, he walks up to me, says congratulations in my ear, and wraps his arm around me.

i must say, i did like it. i like hugs.
but don't touch me, you creeper! i hardly know you. :|||

My God

this is for archival purposes. i don't remember if i posted this before (i probably did) but just in case, i need to put this somewhere where i won't lose it and i can remember where to look for it:

I kept thinking that God was supposed to come out of nowhere and fix everything.
But then I realised that God doesn't come upon you; he dwells inside of you. And hopefully I can get in touch with that.

this is by my friend madee, who constantly struggles internally with the christian faith and if it is for her. i love how she tries and is trying to change her lifestyle.

Go About Your Business, There's Nothing to Read Here

no, seriously. click next blog. :D
just here to blog again about mayday parade because i'm emotional. again.

i seriously could listen to mayday forever.
i could lie in a field of grass, by myself, with an ipod chock full of mayday and a battery that never died (now wouldn't that be nice?) and listen till my heart gave away. it would be better if like matt was there with me, but hey...he doesn't know.

i mean, i can't relate to what most of their songs are about, but...how can i feel like i can? like when you're listening to them, you feel like that person who derek tells everything to, like jason is mine. i tell him everything, i have told him my deepest secrets. idk if derek has one, but you feel so connected when you listen.

and i like how they write their songs. it seems so simple, but so structurally sound at the same time. like a suspension bridge or something. :/

when i hear their music, it feels like music should never get any more complex than that. not like their music is easy, it's incredibly difficult. but like i said, you can listen. you can...understand. does derek host song-writing workshops? :pant

i wrote DEREK SANDERS! on my social studies essay. let us see what my teachers says. xD

ANBERLIN!!!!!

what a n00bish title.

so hay. i saw them on thursday. i almost cried when we had to leave, it was one of the best nights of my entire life. i had a convo with chris kamrada of there for tomorrow, christian mcalhaney looked at me and smiled, and i got to poke christian from there for tomorrow's kneecap. :DDDDD

so now i'm on an anberlin itch now.
or, i want to be, since now that i look back and see all the songs i haven't listened to yet, i smack myself on the head and go to youtube. and that they're almost the best stuff i have ever heard (after relient k).

what's kind of amusing to me is, you know how funny and immature stephen christian acts? he writes songs like (*Fin) and Miserabile Visu.

BTW, speaking of Miserabile Visu, that song gives me the creeps.
Any talk of the book of Revelation and all that makes me want to crawl into a corner and cry. Dear God, protect me, save me. It's an extremely powerful song, but it's got this haunting aura to it since it's about the devil...etc. DD:

suicide song phase...again

remember when i was deeply in love with "don't jump"?

"lullabies" by all time low has been the song for my evening. but i can hardly listen to it, because it makes me weep, and homework is best without tear stains blotching the pencil. gaskarth did good, once again.

i have a new guy friend!

okay, so there's this new kid who moved into my neighborhood like this summer, and he's also in eighth grade. he sits in the seat in front of haley and me on the bus, and since haley and i are wild on the bus, he constantly looks back at us like we're creepers.

well, apparently, he doesn't think that. because one day, i was trying to tell him something, but i didn't know his name. so i was like, "hey, what's your name?"

he smiled and said, "nick. what's yours?"

i smiled and said, "renee."

"hey, renee. what's up?"

i like...sigh of relief, because i like seriously thought we were total nerds. xD
but then, i tell him what i had to tell him, and then during the bus ride, he like talks to me. he's so nice, it's not even funny.

and then today, he was talking to jessica (supporter of abortion, screw her! DD:<) and then i peered over the seat. he then was like, "oh hey, renee. hey jessica, renee's my new best friend." and he gives me a high five.

repeat this afternoon. i got free six flags tickets from drew (but i don't go to six flags), but i offered them to nick. he said he didn't want them, but then this other guy took them. he then said good-bye to me in a really sweet and cheerful way.

eek! he's such a sweetie-pie! do you think i have finally found a good guy friend?
perhaps he could go to the eighth grade dance with me if matt is unavailable. ;)

Don't Read This Post

and yet, you do anyway. :sigh

i'm just here to complain because i am too lazy to go upstairs and chronicle in my paper journal.
i had a tournament yesterday all day, so naturally, i exerted my body way more than i normally do. i am so sore, everywhere, all the time. i can't move hardly anything without feeling the pains. that is all.

Juliet Simms

i once was in love with nastia liukin and idolized her because of her grace and determination.
i still do, but now that the olympics are over, that phase has deflated a little.

now i am in juliet simms mode.
i first heard of her when i heard "remembering sunday" by all time low. i quickly went to her myspace and heard "hush." at first, i thought it sounded weird and didn't like it.

i heard it a second time when haley and amanda questioned who she was.
still didn't really like it.

then on my sister's birthday, i was listening to it again, and i really payed attention to the lyrics, and i was astounded. she was magnificent! it was stuck in my head the whole day.

i heard it again today, and again, and again, then i listened to "parker" and "unhearted" and "makeup smeared eyes" and i was just agape in wonder. who said haley williams was the girl in punk rock? juliet simms totally pwns!

she's so incredibly talented and pretty. her music is definitely not immediate fall-in-love kind of stuff, but it's strangely addictive once you get hooked. i love it. i am now going through a temporary automatic loveletter phase now. poor manda and haley. xP

MAYDAY

and honestly, i have been begging for a reason to start believing.
and in just a moment, this will be a memory.

that some of these days, we can just relish in good music, the soul of our being, and that we can understand who we are and exactly why we are here. how we can unravel the complex knots in the dreadful hours of some days and slow down the glistening joy we glow on others.

mayday parade. i drink to you. because your music has helped me solve some engimas i never thought i possibly could.

VENTVENTVENT

i hardly write in my real diary anymore, let alone this blog.
i just came here to vent about alexander william.
and my real diary has no idea who alexander william is. but you probably do. because all time low is becoming more and more popular every day.

but no matter, i won't dwell on that.

coffee shop soundtrack: all known and loved. not everyone knows it was his affair with a married woman. no matter. that's not my point, and i am over that (having found that information a couple months ago, actually).

but anyway, i have this tendency to like a song without really thinking about the lyrics. i know there's something deep and meaningful about the song, but i'm just too lazy to figure it out, so i just like it. i usually find out the meaning myself by randomly writing the lyrics on homework or something. and then it's like...revelation. it's like, "hey, i know. and...holy crap...THAT'S AMAZING."

just had that with css. great song. i have dug further into the depths of it by that random writing technique. and...i dunno. i all of a sudden feel MAD. VERY MAD. AT ALEXANDER WILLIAM.

that he can write such deep lyrics about something so shallow? that he can soften my hard heart by being a full-blown party animal man-whore? that he captures my attention just by opening his mouth?

I DON'T KNOW. AND I WILL GO CRAZY. I HATE HIM.
HATE HIM I TELL YOU!

:cry

alkdfnav;oagn

so.
i have listened to "jasey rae" probably literally 50 times by now.

and when you have listened that many times, you notice things.

i was in bed listening to my ipod with "jasey rae" on, and all of a sudden, between the parts "...i want you to mean it" and "jasey..." and hear little bells echoing off the top of my head! i was like, "oh schveet!" because i had never heard them before, and now whenever i listen, i hear for the bells. :D

ALKSNF;IWDNG;OWIGN

sorry. i need a title.

so have you heard "let it roll" by all time low?
it's not the cleanest song, but it's feel good. >.>

I LOVE THE FALSETTO ALEX DOES ON THE CONTROL IN THE CHORUS.
I LOVE THE FALSETTO ALEX DOES ON THE CONTROL IN THE CHORUS.
I LOVE THE FALSETTO ALEX DOES ON THE CONTROL IN THE CHORUS.
I LOVE THE FALSETTO ALEX DOES ON THE CONTROL IN THE CHORUS.

O.O ohmygosh, i LOVE THAT SOUND!
AHHHH!!!1!!eleven!

My Life and Times as Part of the FCA

...
don't laugh at my title.

So today was the first day I have ever gone to FCA (don't go wha? go google!), since before, I didn't have anybody to go with, and this time, I was able to go with Amanda, who was graciously able to accompany me to school at 8:15 to do...something. We had no idea what they were going to do. I mean, they could have tried to play basketball in the cafeteria...

But they didn't. :D
We arrived and they served us Chich-fil-A chicken biscuits (OMGYUMMMMMMM) and then sat down to eat. There were only like 6 8th graders compared to the rest of the crew, like 50 other people in 7th and 6th grade.

We played some strange screaming game, then sat down. There was a really nice pastor guy, who was very young and cool, who read us some scripture and talked about focusing on the future and not dwelling on the past (amen). I had never heard the Word in school before, and to me, that just made me feel like we are one. That we Christians are congregated because of that one thing in common. Our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.

While we were praying, I thanked the Lord that we finally have this organization to be able to worship Him in the place where we spend most of our lives. There was an opportunity for those who haven't accepted Him yet to do so, and when we were leaving for homeroom, I saw a handful next to the pastor, getting the fill-in on baptism. I was so happy.

I plan to go again, whenever the next meeting is. Being surrounded by Christians made me feel secure and just...safe.

I could...like, feel a special web of safety, that we were surrounded by God.

Me. Simplicity. Happiness.

I am going monk.
Hippie, whatever you want to call it. Just minus the pot and headbands. And kicking cops.

I just want to live simply, to be happy. I'm tired to feeling gloomy, after a week of nothing but that.

Just the bare necessities. My friend feels the same, that thinking that work is dragging her down. What really we need to to just think of how the homework will do good. Sounds really artsy outcast, but since we're outcasts as it is, we're good.

Just eat, sleep, school, and be friends together. No hugging trees.
Add iPods and computers. Because for the 21st century teen, everyone knows those are necessities.

Tuesdays

While I'm at it, I might as well post about my Tuesday. Last Tuesday, the 12th.

Hated it. Hated it. Seemed all right at first, but I woke up with the dank feeling of a humid bedroom, plus since I haven't cleaned my room in a while, so there were clothes strewn all over the floor, adding to the uncomfortableadaasasness. Plus to find out that I slept in, and I still had to take a shower, and made me all grouchy. D:<

And then the whole day I felt emo, because it seemed my friends were avoiding me, and when I got home, I read on Wikipedia that "Coffee Shop Soundtrack" is about Alex Gaskarth's affair with a married woman. So I was all, "Gosh, eff you Alex!"

And then Youtube didn't let me upload AVERYIMPORTANTVIDEO. And then I became mad at Youtube too. I'm still kind of upset at them, and still at Gaskarth, but I saw a vid on Youtube of Zack Merrick taking off his shirt, so I loosened up a bit on Youtube and All Time Low. Still.

DO NOT EFF WITH MY FISH

please do me a favor and go youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxjyeQFHy2M&feature=related

i had to tell someone, and since no one really comes on here anymore, even me, i decided that i will just tell everyone and no one.

alex named his snail saucy. NOT SAUCY. SHOSHY. that's how to pronounce it, not saucy, but like shoshy, because that's just the way it is.

THAT'S THE EFFING BEST THING EVER. XDDDDD

.All Time Low.

Look down. Repeat with All Time Low.

It's sad how everyone doesn't really take ATL seriously because of their poppy, "care-less" sound (I am guilty of this), but I just realized that Alex Gaskarth is an extremely deep writer for being 20 and young and notorious.

I don't want to put my entire experience here, but I just thought for whoever stumbled upon this would get that I am finally delving deeper into music than I ever have before.

I Love Mayday Parade

Look below. Repeat with Mayday's lyrics.

I Love Tokio Hotel

I couldn't resist. I love the sheet out of those guys.
It's like you're married and then kind of get used to your spouse, but then you go on like your second honeymoon and fall in love all over again...

First off, I'd like to say this: Bill is a sexybeast.
Haley, please don't crush me to a powder, cuz that'd be painful, quite frankly. x)
But I suppose it's those teenage hormones, but I have been looking at Bill lately and noticing how effing attractive he is. I'm not kidding! I'm like, "Ooooh, Bill's really hawt!" and therefore, have needed the oppertunity to finally let that out. Danke.

And then, their songs. Their English songs were the ones that led me to Tokio Hotel FanGirl World of Kingdom Come and Never Return. But then I have now listened to more of their German songs and the German versions of the English ones, and I am IN LOVE.

English has no words. That's why words are stupid. Because they can't really be used. Only minorly. And this is a feeling of deep passion, like I LOVELOVELOVE Tokio Hotel SO MUCH.

Like "Ich Bin Nicht Ich." Oi. I have never heard a band sing about that. Not one.
And I just really concentrated on "Hilf Mir Fliegen," and I nearly cried listening to it (but I didn't, on account of my dad being in the room and you know what kind of situation that would have been).

And others. And so you have it. My blog post on how much I love Bill Kaulitz and Tokio Hotel and how much they mean to me. :/ Which is sad.

Bored

Um...I am posting for the heck of it. Because I haven't posted for a while. Because I am bored and don't feel like doing my homework right now because I have a lot.
ON THE SECOND DAY OF SCHOOL! -.-'

Yesterday was the first day, and I was sooooo majorly upset because Amanda and Haley are in none of my classes and all of the preps were gnashing at me. Not literally and not in my face, but I felt so uncomfortable. Gah, I hate first days.

Oi. I write on this thing than my regular journal. PAHA!

New Tokio Hotel Episode

#36

THIS ONE MADE ME LAUGH.
First of all, during the Argentina interview, I loved how Bill said, "Hola!" and how he was, as they say, "psychic." O.O He is psychic...

And his private party! Only for VIPs! I loved watching him singing along to the Enlglish love songs, and watching Tom roll his eyes (because we all know we are just a little bit jealous of Bill's energy). And it was kind of funny how he was holding that fan and watching his lion mane go whoosh!

And he wore shades at the concert! :DDDDD
But too bad for us, because Tokio Hotel isn't coming to my hometown or anywhere near. D:

I Sound Like a Stalker...

GAH! I'M IN LOVE!

This sounds extremely stalkerish, but I'm not. I just watch his videos 24/7 on YouTube. This guy called pvjr35 does all these Anberlin covers and you can tell they're his favorite band. Plus he's so nice on his comments and he's so cute. XDDDD

Just thought I'd let you know. If he's reading this...oh shittake. ._.

New Band!

This time, I will just say it upfront. Flyleaf.

Amanda listened to them long before I ever payed them mind, but now, I am like..."More Flyleaf! Gasp!"

I love how their music secretly has a Christian meaning behind it. They don't say they are a Christian band just like Relient k and Switchfoot, but I don't need that to tell me that they have stories of my Saviour behind their songs.

And I like their metalcore sound! Well, not really metalcore, but it's more hardcore than most stuff I listen to. x) The most punky stuff I listen to is Anberlin and occasionally The Horrors. And now Flyleaf is added to that list!

New Band!

Andrew Goldstein's voice is unbelievably catchy! He is lead singer of The Friday Night Boys, who sound like Run Kid Run and all the other bands I listen to, and again, kudos to the spectacular Haley for finding them.

They have a more poppy sound, but then again, I will have to admit, I am more poppy than hardcore, so I can just lie down and listen and listen and listen.

Plus Andrew's voice is so wonderful, just like David Curtis from Run Kid Run. It's like an addictive buzzing voice, like...I don't know. SO ADDICTIVE. :O

._.

Just saying. I was listening to the "Spring Nicht" video *again* and singing along.

Then, since I kind of understand the English version a little better x), I decided to listen to it to recieve a little more impact, and I accidentally started singing in German!...

Apparently I've listened to "Spring Nicht" more than "Don't Jump." ._.

Bewildered

I was listening to The Maine's new album, Can't Stop Won't Stop, and I noticed how...I don't really like it. I was so shocked, because I fell in love with the music on their EPs, but the stuff on their album is like...a bad aftertaste.

Though the song "Into Your Arms" is extremely beautiful. I listened to it so many times, starlight probably got caught in my eyeballs.

But nevertheless, I am also disappointed how The Maine swear a lot more in their songs. I mean before, it just seemed like little bad words here and there, but now, it's kind of uncomfortable. :

Thought I'd just let you know that. Since my summer has basically been finding new music. 24/7.

I Forgot

Oh yeah. And Amanda came back on the 8th. :D

New Band!

Woah! Two new bands in less than 24 hours!

But anyway, kudos to Haley for finding them for me (just as she did with The Maine). What is ironic is that they sound insanely alike The Maine and they're also from Arizona. A lot of good bands come from Arizona, I've noticed, like Jimmy Eat World and Anarbor. So, here's the moment of truth:

Drumroll please.

THE SUMMER SET. There you go! As like The Maine, they've only released 2 EPs (except The Maine's new album, Can't Stop Won't Stop, came out the ninth!), but I love their sound. It's pure feel-good music. Makes you happy. :)

New Band!

The Fratellis. :)

I was with Amanda and Haley two days ago for a sleepover and we were filming for our video project, Three Idiots and A Camera. We decided to turn on the TV radio for the purpose of background and dancing music :D. We went to Alt Nation and were listening, and eventually, a band called The Fratellis came up and we immediately became attached. So off to Wikipedia and YouTube and we are kind of in a temporary obsession mode with "Chelsea Dagger." Ha.

Do do do do do do do do do do do do do...

I Love My Life

::sigheth::

So Warped Tour was yesterday. And you know how amazing that is. And I didn't get to go.

But no one probably went anyway because in my hometown, it was thundering and lightning and pouring like mad, so it will probably be rescheduled. And I won't be able to go.

AND RELIENT K WAS GOING TO BE THERE! ::WAH!!:: AND ANBERLIN! And Mayday Parade! And We the Kings! AND LOADS OF OTHER BANDS! Yes, as you can tell, I am quite upset.

Plus the fact that Tokio Hotel is touring in North America right now and they decide to just skip over my hometown. And it's a pretty significant city too, compared to Sanyfriedwhatever, New Jersey.

New Tokio Hotel TV Episode

#33

This was a pretty good episode, considering that Bill and Tom were talking about movies, one of my favortie topics (I might get a career in the film industry). And I couldn't believe Bill is so sensitive! He was talking about the sad movies like The Notebook and Joe Black and he was really sincere about it too! <3

Also, when they were throwing Skittles at Georg to wake him up, you know how Bill licked one and then threw it? Haley screencapped it and demanded me to make an icon out of it because it looked so hot. You can see it here, along with all the other icons Amanda and I made: http://s142.photobucket.com/albums/r116/Creamandsmiley/Icons/Tokio%20Hotel/bill/?action=view&current=bill_skittle_iconcopy.jpg

O.O

You know Trace Cyrus from Metro Station? Well, yeah, I think he's really hawt, but I don't have a crush on him okay? Ha, I'm not that shallow...

Okay, so, I was watching their video for "Kelsey" and I was watching him sing back-up vocals for some parts. Then I got to this part: 2:09 through 2:15 on http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRTyMUZ1m1A&feature=user

You know that like "flash" of memory or vision or whatever you get when you see something that reminds you of something of before? Like Tom Kaulitz chewing reminds me of his brother speaking?

Well, Trace singing that reminds me of something, something so vaguely familiar but it's there in my brain, you know? And since I can't figure it out, I am slowly going insane trying to remember it. I'm thinking it's an aquaintance from the summer of 2001, a girl named Destiny, but I don't think so... I think it might be a guy of somesort, shape, form...

New Tokio Hotel TV Episode

#32

This one has by far been the best out of all of them.

That is all.

New Band!...kinda

this is you --> -_-'

this is me --> xDDDD


I know you're tired of me being so music crazy and doing nothing but finding new music all the time, but I didn't find them: a girl on Mibba did. Well, she didn't find them, but she likes them and incorporated them into her fanfiction, so I decided, "Hey, what the Schneck, let's check 'em out."

M. E. T. R. O. S. T. A. T. I. O. N. Yay! I first read about them when I learned they're going on tour with Boys Like Girls, Good Charlotte, and The Maine on The Soundtrack of Your Summer Tour, but I didn't give them much mind since I just found out about The Maine and was busy looking for all music, all pics, all videos of them.

But then the girl on Mibba said she liked them. "Oh, well, there they are again!" And then her friend on Mibba said she liked them. "Er...do you think it's time to check them out, Renee?"

NO! But then I learned that one of the guys is Miley Cyrus' brother, and I instantly bared my teeth and shut the doors because I'm just extremely biased like that. Then I went on iTunes and found that they were on that "Just For You" list or whatever, and then another girl on Mibba said she liked them.

AHHHHH! Fine, I'll go see who they are, geez! So I go to Wikipedia and digest everything there is to know about Metro Station, and that Mason Musso is Mitchell Musso's brother and Trace Cyrus is Ms. Smiley Miley's half-brother. I was still really biased and then I went to YouTube, listened to a couple of songs, and instantly decided I didn't like them because they were powerpop/pop rock and I don't listen to that stuff. And the fact that Trace is Miley's brother.

But today, I decided, well, let's give them another try. And I have set aside my boundaries and found out that I like them. Because I have decided I shouldn't limit myself to just rock and alternative. So I like Metro Station, sure, but they're not amazing.

And Trace Cyrus is actually pretty hawt. ;D

YOU WILL NOT BELIEVE WHAT JUST HAPPENED!

DREAM PUT ON HOLD IS GOING TO COLLABORATE WITH TOKIO HOTEL! WE'RE GOING ON TOUR WITH TOKIO HOTEL! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

psych. x) Of course we're not, since...since...you know why, but in Amanda's imagination we are! She has this fanfic on Mibba (if you don't have one, I would advise you to) about Dream Put On Hold collaborating with Tokio Hotel. It's actually very good and isn't about sex and hotel rooms like other fanfics (thank GOODNESS).

Go and read it! I have a link on my Mibba: Bridgesmademyday.

New Tokio Hotel TV Episode

#31

Tom finally didn't flick us off as he was getting on the plane! Danke! And yes, I salute your motives toward peace. xD

Plus, I also felt sorry for him when he had to go through the metal detectors and it took them three hours to confirm it was just the metal in his jeans. Poor Tomi. :(

My Blog Post About Body Parts

No, you perv! Ugh, you sicken me!

Anyway, I am going to combine two things that have been on my mind together in one post, since they both are humane parts to type about.

First of all, eyes. :D I am a reader of the Bloody Jack books and actually have a crush on Jaimy (what did you expect, Renee's as deep as a kiddie pool, remember?). I just finished In the Belly of the Bloodhound, and I was thinking back to Under the Jolly Roger. During the scene at the end of the Jolly Roger, when Jacky and Jaimy are...making out, she looks into them and Mr. Meyer, the author, finally gives us Jaimy's eye color, which is a gray.

OHEMGEE. Gray, of all colors, L.A. Meyer picks gray?! That's my stinkin' favorite eye color EVER. I'm not sure why. I'm that person who relates things to other things.

brown=warm, deep
blue=icy, hostile
green=fresh, alive

As for gray, I see that color as something beautiful on the exterior and interior. A butterfly on both sides, if you will.

Now it's time to point fingers and laugh.

And on to the second part. I am going to be telling the world about my favorite characteristics of Bill Kaulitz. Nice, isn't it?

I have this debate over two: his nose, or his arms, combined with his hands.

See, I am cursed with a small, tiny nose. I have no idea how that happened, since my dad has a big nose and I am the first born female of my generation. I hate it, and I wish I had a big nose. It seems to me people with large noses can be bolder and more outgoing than people with small noses. *shrugs*

BUT BILL'S...I can't seem to stop staring at his nose because it's so beautiful. xD It's not big, it's not small, it's the perfect size. http://photobucket.com/image/spring%20nicht%20icons/Novae/Art/Icons/springnicht3.jpg?o=4 I love how it's nice and straight and the nostrils don't flare out. He can be whatever he wants to be, timid or loud, because his nose is in the middle. *grinds teeth* I want that nose! And I want Christian's Siriano's nose too.

And then the arms and hands. They're downright captivating. I could look at a picture of his arms and hands all day if I had the time. If you looked at them without seeing his face, no doubt, anyone would say they're guy arms and hands. They're so manly!

Now, don't slap me just yet. I will say what I like about them. (By the way, this is just as embarassing for you as it is for me.) Hair! AH! He has a decent amount of arm hair! It's goggling! http://photobucket.com/image/bill%20kaulitz/snowflake20075/Bill%20Kaulitz/bill2lk4.jpg?o=40

And have you noticed how the veins stick out on his arms and hands? I want to shake his hands just to feel how strong they are. And to feel how soft...

O.O I just noticed this. I AM JUST LIKE BILL! I look at the hands on a person!

Last Few Days WIth Amanda Before She Leaves Me

So okay! Amanda is going to be leaving Haley and me for over a month and you know what? I feel sad. Yes, I feel sad. I feel sad. "I feel soooo sad!"

So to spend our last few hours of daylight (hm...now that you think about it, even moonlight) together, the three of us (Haley, Amanda, and I) have devised a drastic plan to keep together until she departs for Brazil. D:

So! We went to the mall, the ULTIMATE FRICKIN TEEN HANGOUT BABII, after Mellow Mushroom that is, and went everywhere around, wearing pretty tiaras that Amanda got for us from Disney World.

First, we went to dELiA*s and got dresses and shirts, then to PacSun, where Haley thought she could take an hour just finding $50 of clothing. But we were fine, since things at PacSun are very wonderful: pretty colors and lovely perfumes.

Off to Hot Topic, right? Haley saw these amazing checkerboard pants online (http://www.hottopic.com/hottopic/store/product.jsp?FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=2534374302028387&PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=845524442169506&bmUID=1213498246718) that she wanted to get. Amanda saw the same ones in turquoise, so we marched off, Renee feeling extremely uncomfortable in Adidas sandals. But we tramped in, Haley finding them, but feeling inferior that she couldn't reach them, since they were on the highest possible rack.

So a worker comes over and sees a bunch of girls staring a pair of pants. I get one of those lightbulb moments and think he looks freakishly a lot like the guy I once saw at Hollywood Video. But anyway, he's so nice about the business getting the hook to get the hosen down, joking that if those were not the right size he would not get another pair down for us. But I had never encountered another employee as nice as that guy.

We go to the dressing room and Amanda and I go to look for merch shirts, so when Haley comes out, she tells us all about the cool guy. "You know how that guy has Mikey Way glasses?"

"Yeah."

"HIS NAME IS MIKEY." And you know, it is natural for us to FOON, and we do. Also later, she tells us that Mikey asked her about the tiaras we were wearing.

"Is it someone's birthday today or is it just...you know?"

"No, we're just being ourselves."

"Oh. Okay!"

I like Mikey. :) And when Amanda tries to ask for the turquoise pants, Mikey pretends to act all annoyed and sloop his shoulders, dragging his feet, and scoff. It was really funny. :D

We're obsessing over a guy we know nothing about.

Then we went to Hollister because we wanted to play with the music player. We pushed the Tokio Hotel "Ready, Set, Go!" remix maybe just a pajillion times, and pushed seventy other songs like "Friend Like That," "The Way We Talk," "Less Than Four," "Oh! Gravity." We kept dancing to them, but Haley got annoyed and we had to leave before Tokio Hotel could play.

Off to the M.A.C. counter! We had a really fun time with the eyeshadow, and the associate kept looking at us like Haley didn't know what she was doing. Uh, ahem! Get with the program, Haley is teh masta with the makeup! You DO NOT question her greatness! And it was her first time at the M.A.C. counter too...so applause, ja?

She helped Amanda with her raver look and Amanda gave my sister a "mermaid" look. But then...I told Haley to put eyeshadow on me, but it happened to be my skin tone, and that didn't work out too well...

Amanda tried out Ed Hardy perfume, I introduced my mother to the noxious fumes of Chanel No. 5, and Haley was over putting on Marc Jacobs. Somehow that made us wild and we ran around the counter like it was a race track. Vroom, vroom!

And then we went home.

Now we're at Amanda's, typing this, eating ice cream, listening to Top 40, and I'm dancing with my new boyfriend, Carni the plastic carnitorous. Sorry Eric. :(

Watch Mikey and Eric be avid readers. Ha.

What would you call them? Extraordinarily amazing?

So me and me mum went to go get a dress for my friend Cassidy's birthday party on Saturday, and we went to T. J. Maxx to go look for stuff, right? Turns out, the dresses they have are nothing short of shoot, so me mum and I decided to hang around to compensate for the gas. xP

I was walking around and I spot in a corner a pile of black shoe boxes behind this white old lady shirt, and I peek in there and notice they're an entire pile of Adidas sandals! I was so stoked because I would have never guessed that the trademark Adidas sandals would be at T. J. Maxx, but they were and I tried on a pair.

They're pink and white and so pretty, and I decided to get them. AND GUESS WHAT. THEY WERE ONLY $19.99. Can you believe my luck?! Me mum paid for them, since I didn't have my money with me at the moment, and then paid her back when we got home.

So now I'm wearing the sandals because they're so comfy (even though my mom gets so ticked when we wear shoes in the house). I love them!

So here's my list:

1. cowboy boots
2. Bill Adidas shoes
3. Adidas sandals- check, babii!

You can say I'm shallow. Alternatively, you can say I'm shallow.

I have finally compiled a list of all my celebrity crushes. There's a lot, so put your feet up.

Skandar Keynes (actor, most credited for being in The Chronicles of Narnia movies)
Bill Kaulitz (musician, most credited for being lead singer of band Tokio Hotel)
Gustav Schäfer (musician, most credited for being drummer of band Tokio Hotel)
Deon Rexroat (musician, most credited for being bassist of band Anberlin)
Viggo Mortensen (actor, most credited for being in movies Hidalgo and The Lord of the Rings)
Penn Badgley (actor, most credited for being in television show "Gossip Girl")
Zack Merrick (musician, most creditied for being bassist for band All Time Low)
Matt Hoopes (musician, most credited for being lead guitarist for band Relient k)
Garrett Nickelsen (musician, most credited for being bassist for band The Maine)

And though you could say I have a crush on Nate Young of Anberlin, I would much prefer him as one of the most superduperallywhooper!...big brothers ever. :)

New Band!

Okay, okay, you're probably going, "Does this kid ever give it a rest? She seriously needs to get a life."

BUT! This is not another band to listen to. It is a band that I am in! See, Amanda, Haley, Lucas (Mandaaa's brother) and I are deciding to start a band. We're called A Dream Put On Hold (after many days of debate)and it's honestly not that organized yet, since we either have instruments or we don't have them and know how to play them (wait...that makes no sense, scratch that) or neither. In my case, I have neither.

Guess what I am going to play! Vocals? Geez, you're stupid: I can't sing to save my dear dog. Poor thing ): That's why Amanda's doing that, plus playing the keyboard. Drums? Nope, I'm not hardcore enough to do that, which is why Lucas is going to be the one who plays the drums. Guitar? Nope, I'm not cool enough to play lead guitar. Haley's just cool enough.

And then there's the bass guitar. Yep, that's a me, Renee! And you just can't help but gasp because bass guitar is the sweetest instrument out there after concert flute. So ha! I am now Renee the Almost Bassist, since I still have to learn how to play one. x)

You know those cool nicknames band members have? Here's ours:

Amanda= The Commanda (Commander+Amanda=Commanda)
Haley= Comet (Haley's Comet, geddit?!)
Renee= The Grenade (Gustav+Renee= Grenae)
Lucas= we'll just call him Pukas for now

Oh! and I came up with Tokio Hotel's band members too:

Bill=boss
Tom= Casanova
Georg= gladiator
Gustav=secret agent investigator
full time negotiator
seven seas navigator
hums in elevator
heart beat accelerator

That's talent, right there.

Do you know what also baffles me? "Spring Nicht" and "Don't Jump" were the only ones I could find that were extremely similar to the point where you go, "AH-EEEEEE! HOW DO THEY DO THAT?!!!"

Have you noticed how freakishly similar the videos for "Spring Nicht" and "Don't Jump" are? It would have been great to film "Spring Nicht", but how did they get "Don't Jump" to be so alike?

You can't say they took out the music and replaced it with the English version, because you have to think about the lip-sync. Have you seen it? One's coordinating with the German lyrics and the other with the English lyrics. How do they do that?

I really want to know the director for those music videos. He's got talent. Plus the videos are very beautiful.

I'm slow!

I'm pretty dang sure everyone has noticed this, but I just saw it and laughed till my sister was like O.o

I decided I wanted to carefully watch all of Tokio Hotel's music videos, German and English, just to observe everything they do in them. I started with "Don't Jump" because that one is obviously the one that was most carefully thought through, and wound down to "Scream."

Just watching, not expecting anything, then I got to the bridge where all the girls are kissing *cringe* and then at the last pair, I saw Bill was watching them. Then they noticed him and Bill was like, "No."

I frickin' loved his face! Here's a link if you want to see it:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=L9pEQmJmj4s

Go to 2:20 to see it. Or you can just watch the whole thing if you want. :D

And was Bill wearing cowboy boots in that video? I know he does wear them, but now...argh! I seriously need to get a pair, now that Christian and Bill wear them.

Dead.

...okay, I haven't gone to bed yet.

But I just learned Yves Saint Laurent just died in Paris this evening. Don't you think there is just a bit of time for me to stay up to remember what he did TO MAKE WOMEN FEEL POWERFUL *superman pose*? You too. :)

New Band!

Yes, again.

I wouldn't say they're as coolio as Tokio Hotel or as amazing as Relient k, but their sound is very electrifying and energetic. Remember Pat Kirch?

Hooray! Then you should remember The Maine! It's kind of degrading how I only have their EP to listen to, unlike Relient k. When I first liked them and began to avidly listen to them, they had just come out with Five Score and Seven Years Ago! Five albums: a bit of music there...

But I like The Maine's love songs. It's not pop, it's not punk. That's why they came up with the genre pop punk. *nods* Yes. And I can actually relate to the love songs, because I can't really fake my own suicide, you know what I mean?

John Ohhh= the cool guy
Garrett Nickelsen= the awsome, excellent, oh-so-grand man
Pat Kirch= the cute wittle boy <3
Kennedy Brock= the good looking guy
Jared Monaco= the majestic man

There you go. Do you think I should go to bed? Me too. *nods off*

New Tokio Hotel TV Episode (yes, again ;D)

#28.

Comet Awards! Time for tension! I found out about the Comet Awards maybe a month ago, and I would have voted if I knew how, because when I clicked on the link to vote, it wouldn't go! So that depressing to think I wasn't able to add to the fact I was part of that award.

SO ANYWAY! Did you see Bill's new look?! I gotta say, he was very handsome (...why am I saying it again?) and I was like DDD: because he took out his ferocious streaks! But apparently in the next video he has them again. It would be cool if he alternated.

I was also extremely surprised at how Tokio Hotel was nominated for three categories, won all of them, and won the COOLIO SUPERCOMET! Come on, for any devoted Tokio Hotel fan, you can only jump so high in the air! I am so proud of them. *sniff* That is all.

Pat Kirch!

I was Gmail chatting with Haley (or whatever it's called) and she said she just bought "The Way We Talk" by The Maine on iTunes, and I was like, "Oh, I haven't heard of them...MySpace time!" I like "The Way We Talk" too. :)

So I was looking at pics, and I found the most adorable guy who is the drummer for The Maine! His name's Pat Kirch, and it's not like boyfriend cute, but more like little boy cute, even though he's 18 and older than me. ;D But he's just so damn cute! Give him a good look; I promise you, he'll capture your heart real soon.

Also I like the bassist, Garrett Nickelsen. He's cool. x) But then again, every (aspiring) bassist looks wonderful (coughcoughmecoughcough). j/k

He's too perfect!

I was loooking for pictures for an icon I was going to make, and I thought, hey, why not Skandar? So I photobucketed him and found out there were pics I had never seen before!

So I went to http://www.skandar.net to find them, and also in the updates, there was an interview Will, Anna, Skandie, and Georgie did with some magazine or newspaper. I found out that Skandar wanted to be a doctor and has plans to not continue his acting career (I was kind of disappointed at this), but I also found out Skandar likes Project Runway!

Since every other show on American television is pretty much no more than crappy, I was so excited to learn this! That's my favorite television program. x) We're made for each other, I'm telling you!

I think I'm gonna barf...

OKAY. I am going to be frank. My eight-year old sister is in love with Bill Kaulitz.

It's not like I don't encourage my sister's love hormones or whatever they're called *shiver*, but she drew Bill on her paper with red hearts all over it and is now swooning on her bed. Tell me that isn't disgusting. Even I don't literally swoon!

I'm actually kind of scared because Bill's kind of dark and Rachel's all rainbow. I hope she won't grow up to be like that...Bill's cool and all, but I can't see my dear sister like that. No.

Where did she develop this anyway? She used to be all like, "Ew, he looks like a girl!" et cetera, et cetera. Now she's all...

I suppose Bill's capturing the hearts of millions. Maybe that's why Tokio Hotel has so much success!

Renee wrote a poem!

I was trying to write a song, but since I suck at that and can never seem to find a tune, I transformed it into a poem. Huzzah!

WAR.

Put on your sweatshirt, we're going out

Past the red light that can't stop this

Who came up with this dirty thought

Countless lives taken are what bought

Nothing of particular, nothing of consequences

The red light is not the one that can stop this

Running away should be for the defenseless

A mistake someone said to strike the oppression

Pressure was built to cause damage

In this situation, evil and hatred in marriage

Bullets ring out over a field of greed

It makes us suffer when we learn of the casualties

We cry, we mope, we pray for it to end

But honestly, my friends, is now any different from then?

Nothing has changed, still people fight

Revolution is what need, while awareness is at its height

Okay, so war has countless consequences, many, many, many effects on worldwide lives. But not the price of death. What has that done? Only raised the heads of those who care, to notice, "Ah, something's going on here..."

more FOONage

Okay, so, I was a car rider today, waiting for my mommy to come and pick me up while the sky was crying her dear heart out. Everyone was getting wet, so we went under the awning thing, I have no idea what it's called, so we were all very close together.

Since I can observe better when I am closer to something, I was noticing two 8th graders that had the coolest clothes ever. One girl had a Cobra Starship merch shirt, and I was like, hey, coolio, and I looked around again.

THEN! I turn around and look at the other girl, and spot colors...the Ho..the tel...A TOKIO HOTEL MERCH SHIRT!! I was mentally freaking out, ZOMG I FOUND ANOTHER TH FAN!! I shuffled up to her and showed her my picture of Bill and Tom I keep in my back pocket and said I am also a Tokio Hotel fan.

She said she really liked "Love is Dead." I would have told her I liked "Don't Jump," but I was too excited that I was tongue-tied. Seriously, I was so happy to meet another Tokio Hotel fan, because you don't meet that many people who like them. Seriously, amazing.

Eric likes Relient k!

Uncontrollable hyper feeling! Last day of school, but that's not the reason.

During...5th? period, we were watching National Treasure: Book of Secrets, when we were also signing yearbooks, and Amanda was pointing to a signature in her yearbook, Eric's. It said, ahem,

Eric. A. Relient k is awsome

And Amanda said he now listens to them, but just likes their old stuff. :OOOO ERIC, ERIC, LIKES RELIENT K!! FOONFOONFOONFOONFOON

Seriously, I find that just ahmaazing. Like you have no idea. *eyes wide*

"New girl in jail." "What's her name?" "Renee Pickleopolis."

Okay, so, Mrs. K is being a butt and is assigning this stupid engineering project in science about constructing bridges. We have to complete it by Friday, or "Automatic zero!" We haven't even finished one of the two towers that go on either side of the bridge!

Geez, does she really think that we are WonderKidz, eating off of nothing but whole grain or something? And if it collapses under 150 grams of weight, "Automatic zero!" My group, which contains Amanda and Haley (which, I am sure, does not surprise you, because I can't do anything without those two) are so desperate and are going berserk because we're terrified we'll get a bad grade, "Automatic zero!"

Even though we've been banned from taking it home and working on it there, because it will be an "Automatic zero!", we have tried taking some of it to Haley's house so we can work on it (while we listened to Tokio Hotel, a very motivating album, I have to say) and smuggle it into science tomorrow. We have to work underground, and it actually looked like we were criminals or something because we were hovered over a table while it was dark outside, with this overhead bleaming light above us.

Amanda said, "If I get into drug dealing, I'll blame it on Mrs. K; she's the one who got me started in working in secret...." Because if she finds out, it'll be an "Automatic zero!" and I CANNOT AFFORD A FRICKIN AUTOMATIC ZERO.

Whoops!

Ha, have you noticed that pretty much all of my posts since the first one about Tokio Hotel have been about...Tokio Hotel?! Goodness, my friends and I can't seem to get enough!

And it's kind of confusing I suppose, because the skin is Relient k and the posts have been about Tokio Hotel this, Tokio Hotel that. But even so, I still love Relient k to miniscule specks. Relient k and Tokio Hotel are my favorite bands definitely.

New Tokio Hotel TV Episode

It's not like I haven't watched the other ones, because trust me, I have probably watched them more times than probably healthy, but the new Tokio Hotel TV Episode, Episode 25, about their new U.S. album, Scream, was somehow the most intriguing.

First of all, I love how the band performs; they have a dynamic style that kicks...like...well...yeah, and an enegertic style that I love in music. If you have boring music, sorry bub, but you lost a fan.

(Since Haley took Bill from me, I claim Gustav.) Gustav has the most amazing accent! It's so cute, I absolutely love it. When Tom was speaking, it sounded as if he memorized it from a script, and Bill's is just old-fashioned German fun. Poor Georg, he didn't get to speak. :( I wonder if he knows enough English...

Plus the part about "Don't Jump." After watching, I couldn't stop myself, but I had all ready paused the video and was staring Bill, like You amaze me. He said it was a more serious and more powerful song, about suicide and not giving up hope. Since that is like, MY FAVORITIST SONG YOU CAN'T CHANGE MY MIND BECAUSE I REPEAT IT IS MY FAVORITIST SONG I was just contemplating, like my mind working fiercly! (had to orient Christian in there) because I could only find one word for this song: strength.

I love Bill: he is so coolio. But just to throw the whole feeling off, I liked how he said, "A more serious and more powerful song we included on the album is 'don't jamp.". I loved how he said "don't jump," like he was about to burp or something. He's so adorable, I could watch him work forever. :D

Croutons

Okay, so, I went to hang out with Haley and Amanda at Haley's place this evening, and we played in a very thrifty way, but had quite the hullabaloo. First, we went and waved to every passing car at the end of the block, and we got 21 waves, 2 birds, and 2 cool guy "two-finger gesture." A trio of bold "cool" guys, those that sag and wear New Balance, you know what I mean, also were walking and were saying things, of which I cannot remember.

Plus, we played this imagination game, where we went into a "cave" (a temporary abode for the primitive mind) made out of Haley's comforter, and we came up with:

1. UPS doesn't accept gnome currency, just human.
2. The International Call of Help for the Aid of Bill Kaulitz requires a complex series of mumbo-jumbo.
3. The International Call of Help for the Aid of Tom Kaulitz, we advise, should be your LAST resort. Especially when you are under covers. And it is dark and smoldering.

And later, we changed the "cave" into an "underwater wonderland," of which we were trapped underwater in a submersible without any contact with above. Here, we came up with the following:

1. 'Tis okay to eat the baby shark if you have no food.
2. 'Tis not okay once the mommy shark finds out you ate her babe. Therefore, to escape from her, curl up in a cube position and pretend to be a garlic crouton.
3. CROUTONS MAKE NOISES!! Did you not know? If you hear like really, really, and I mean REALLY closely, you can hear them go, "Crouton, crouton..."
4. For the prevention of the daddy shark lurking about your submersible, you and your friends must impersonate a tossed salad. I advise you to not be the dressing.
5. The International Call of Help for the Aid of Bill Kaulitz is not accessible 20,000 leagues under the sea.

::more confetti::

Hooray! Today is my dog's birthday...or which we assume, since no one knows her exact birthday. We estimated it around the beginning of May, so it was like, "1 May it is!" Flint is now 2. <3

She's growing up so fast!

For once, language arts isn't quite such a bore! The classes of Mrs. C. W. have gone and adopted a special little young 'un. Crazy, cuz we adopted words. My little word is 'gyration' which means "a whirling or spinning motion." Since this word reminds me of a ballerina, I'm making the little word a girl. xD

Actually, I think this operation is quite fun. Ha.

But...why?

You know how there are so many organizations out there who fund poverty and AIDS, charities? I can't even describe how...wonderful they are. They're... beautiful.

But, why do we have these charities? Why is there poverty and corruption and suffering? What has brought this upon our own generation? Certainly not God.

Yes, I am afraid, we have brought this horrific tragedy upon ourselves. And I think I know what causes this. Greed. Yup, that disgusting, bitter word that leaves a destructive wake. I can't believe so many of us aren't even giving time to think about what goes on places out of reach. We worry about drama in our lives, how to cope with it.

It's easy compared to how gargantuan the problem is with suffering.

Listen to me! Yes, this little tweenie who lives in suburbia undergoing school stress: There are people out there! They see, feel, believe like we do. They laugh... and cry. They know of organizations, they know they help people. But will those funds help them? I want to leave my handprint on the world. I think it's your turn to consider what will be your fate. Go.

They see, they feel, believe, just like we do. They're laughing...and crying. Want to live here, like me and you.

-Tokio Hotel

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOO?!!!!!!!!!

Dude, STOP SAYING BILL KAULITZ IS FRICKIN GAY! AND TOM AND BILL ARE NOT IN A TWINCEST! Geez, that bugs the chicken sh** out of me.

Bill has confirmed he is NOT GAY. http://youtube.com/watch?v=3aG0gpvSYA8
THERE ARE SUCH THINGS AS POSERS, if you weren't smart enough to figure that out. He has personally confirmed he is a heterosexual, and no one in Tokio Hotel is gay.

Convinced Tom and Bill are together? With this load of sh**:

http://photobucket.com/image/tom%20and%20bill/E-nomine-liebe/11229-tom-bill-bizou.jpg?o=31
http://photobucket.com/image/tom%20and%20bill%20twincest/scoobydoovictoria/shit/11224564755cceff6.jpg?o=8

Can't you see the effin line that people have used Photoshop or other dastardly programs to manipulate the photos? If you don't, get your eyes checked, cuz if you don't see that, you won't pass your midterm.

Okay, now look at the twins in this video:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=nhqIheGv9ZM

And look at Tom and Trina in this video:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=1UnR3NiiWK4

And the proof of photo manipulation in this:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=lqkPQjl5rdU

TA-DAA!!!! See how people use graphics?

Sure, Bill may look gay because of his fragile-looking body. But guess what partner. There are people in this world who think you are equally as sick to think just because he has feminine curves he is a homosexual. Know what that's called? Ignorance.

Revolution

And when you talk about destruction, you know you can count me out.
-The Beatles

For right now, if someone were to give me one wish, one wish at all, I would wish to end this ridiculous damned fight over oil.

We are So GOOD

Well, exams began yesterday, and Haley told me yesterday she entertained herself by thinking of Bill Kaulitz's AWESOME MANLY WALK (http://youtube.com/watch?v=2NkJPl1k18U) when we were waiting for the session to finish.

So today, Haley and I were waiting for the session to finish up, boring our brains out. We sit next to each other, and all of a sudden she was stifling laughter. I knew she was thinking about the BILL WALK and I too was thinking, and soon, we both were trying to control ourselves from not exploding in hysterics.

Our monitor, Mrs. K, who is like our friend and tries to stay on top of things in our young lives, looked over at us and made a face like, "What are you two doing?" Amanda, who sits a couple of seats in front of us, seemed to know what we were laughing about, and began laughing, so everyone in the room besides the three of us was looking at us like we were lunatics.

So this afternoon in science, when we were with Mrs. K, she brought up the shennanigan in front of the class. She said, "By the way, you three, why were you laughing during testing this morning?"

I said, "Well, you see, we can telepathically communicate. We can laugh about the same thing without anyone knowing. It's how we pass the time." I said it so seriously Mrs. K looked at me funny.

Haley had to ruin by saying, "We can transmit YouTube videos via brain." She nodded, and I nodded, and Amanda nodded, and you could tell Mrs. K was totally lost, but it was so funny because everyone knew we were joking except her.

Chat with Tokio Hotel

Amanda had an online chat with Tokio Hotel last night on Stardoll, and even though they didn't answer any of her questions, they answered a lot about ice cream flavors and what side they like to sleep on.

All I remember Amanda telling me was that Gustav liked strawberry ice cream and Tom is the perv of the band. Someone asked him, "Which do you sleep on, your back or your side?" He answered, "Erm, depends on how much space is left in my bed." Still, it's still kind of funny. :D

New Love

AHHHHH!

It has happened again: I have fallen in love with another band! Same thing happened with Relient K and Hawk Nelson and Amber Pacific and Anberlin and Fall Out Boy...and this time, it's not very obvious.

TOKIO HOTEL!!!!!!!!!

They're a band from Germany that is gaining popularity like *snap* And it's so cool how Bill is the youngest, but he's the most dynamic member of the band. My friend, Amanda, and I are going to be talking nothing but them for the next couple days. :D She introduced them to me yesterday, and ever since, I haven't stopped watching them on YouTube and going to iTunes and their website and et cetera et cetera.

I told Amanda that I liked Gustav, the drummer, but now, I'm starting to get a feel for Bill... have you seen all the "MARRY ME BILL!!!" videos on YouTube? Talk about extreme!

I have only been to one concert (RELIENT K), and was supposed to go to three other, but when Tokio Hotel comes here, I'm going to be there!

Spring Break Agony

It's Thursday. Most of my spring break wasted, gone.

Because I haven't done anything, nothing at all, except write, watch TV, and spectate my sister invite her friends over while all my friends are somewhere else.

This stinks!

My mom's planning on taking my sister, me, and a friend (maybe two) to the zoo on Sunday, but that's it! I ran into Eric, yeah the one I mentioned in my previous post, on a walk, and my head hurts, my shoes got dog poo on them, and got to sleep in.

Action! Woo!

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So shut up and listen. Don't say anything.

I just found out Valentino is gay. And Yves Saint Laurent. And Gianni Versace. Domenico Dolce and Stefano Gabbana, Christian Dior, Alexander McQueen (though I kind of suspected him) and Isaac Mizrahi.

WHAT?!!!!!!!!!!!!

All these amazing designers GAY? That sucks. *wail*

I know Christian is gay, but how come like all male designers are gay? Is it like some trend or something? disgusting, i hiss

When everything's made to be broken,

Dear Auckland,
I just want you to know who I am.

Dear Skandar,
I just want you to know who I am.

Dear Eric,
I just want you to know who I am.

Dear Alex,
I just want you to know who I am.

This one word...

Can it be that one word can inspire a whole party? :

go

Pretty

I was random googling, and look at what I found:

"We might not have it all together, but together we have it all."

Isn't that rad?

OOOUUUCHH!

I had an orthodontic appointment today, and I got four new brackets on my twelve-year old and fourteen-year old molars, on on both side on the top.

It's not the pressure that painful, but the brackets and hooks are scraping against the inside of the cheek, and it makes it bleed. It hurts so BAD!!!

I tried putting wax on it, but it keeps coming out, so I have to put tissues inside. I look like a chipmunk.

Imagine going to school in this fashion.

I So Hate Consequences

"And when the doors were closed, I heard no 'I told you so's,"

"I said the words I knew you knew:

"Oh God, oh God, I needed you. All this time, I needed you. I needed you."

-Relient k

So, let's see...
I have just taken my father's purse and spent the lot, drinking and wasting my time and life until there is absolutely nothing left. I have lost contact with my father ages ago because I could care less about the lecture he would give me because of my actions. But the money is gone...

"Father! Please take me back!" Rapping on his front door, begging for a second chance, certainty in my heart that he would turn me away and exclaim, "You have brought this unto yourself! I cannot help you. I do not know why you are here to beg for my forgiveness."

He opens the door, shocked to see me with an expression that it was all this time that I needed him. I needed nothing but his love. His love. Oh, my attempts to come here were in vain...

"Oh!" He throws his arms around me, clearly a reaction that was unexpected. Could this be? "I missed you son, why didn't you come home?"

"Because I knew you would not accept me. With all I have done, how is it that you still want me?"

My father brushes the tears off of my stained cheeks, expressions of a feeling of an unforgivable mistake. "I love you." He hugs me and I grit my teeth, struggling to withstand the rising feeling in my throat, pushing, shoving, wanting to get out-!

"F-f-father!" I cry out and hug him so hard to get the point across that I missed him so much. "I love you too!"

All this time, I needed you. Oh God, oh God, I needed you...I needed you.


This is a story I whipped up in two minutes about "I So Hate Consequences," by Relient k, a song about the Prodigal Son. I cry whenever I hear it, especially the "Oh God, oh God, I needed you." Whatever we do, no matter how extreme or radical it may be, we need God to be our lighthouse in the storm. I cannot imagine a life where you have not stumbled upon obstacles. Only God can lead you out...all you have to do is surrender and let Him show you the way.

HAHAHA

Wow, I'm becoming an avid Bloggerer now. :)

Anyway, I just came back from softball practice, and there is my assistant coach named Charles. Everyone on my team believes he is extremely...captivating? I dunno, I want to avoid using "hot." Well, he is handsome, but he seriously needs to get a personality. Besides, he's too old for us: 19.

I try not to look at him because I just...don't, because I don't want a person whom everyone believes is attractive to distract me from focus on the game.

So, he was doing soft toss with me, and every time I hit the whiffle practice ball thing, I would unintentionally back up. Soon I got so far away I couldn't even hit the whiffly ball, and he beckoned me to come closer, with Tessa, my teammate, saying, "Hey, why do you keep backing up, Renee? Are you scared of Charles or something?"

When we were picking up the whifflies, I whispered, "Yes!" I'm afraid he might have heard it! He's always done what I have done to him (avoiding with a smile in the back of your head), but maybe he got that I really dislike him. Not that I really mind, as I could really not do with guys in my life (ahem, my guy friend). Since I constantly forget to look at the ball when I swing and I miss, he has to remind me to look at the ball (!). I see it gets on his nerves because he does it so often. Oops.<:)

Proud of Myself

We were doing warm-ups in Language Arts yesterday, and the prompt was what you were most afraid of. I was so proud of it ( kill me) that I am posting it:

Is it possible to be afraid of fear in itself? When one asks me what I fear the most, it is difficult to come up with one answer, as I am deathly afraid of caterpillars, pain, kidnappers, and amond countless other things. Why am I scared of so many things? To be such a "fraidy-cat" is like an instable, panicky person, right? But is it that I am afraid of something that wraps around all those things?
I believe I am afraid of feeling afraid, where my loved ones or I are not in a secure position and there is always a jeopardy of our safety. To feel like I am not mostly surrounded by a web of unity and where everyone is there to helo everyone else terrifies me, and I believe that because of this, we should all be willing to aid another if the situation calls for it.

The vocabulary and diversity of language isn't all that great, but my teacher thought that the concept was brilliant. I guess I'm more of a novelist than an essayist(?).

Hayley Williams

Have you noticed how Hayley Williams of Paramore seems to be the "leading lady" of the punk rock/alternative music industry? Because there seems to be no other girl in a band and she's so outstanding and alive, a lot of people use her in their fanfics and look up to her. She's not "bad," so she's an excellent role model.

I like her style too. Her orange hair is HOT, and she wears a lot of eye makeup, which I like too.

But didn't the guy on that movie Ferris Bueller's Day Off that wearing too much eye makeup makes you look like a whore? Well, I guess it kinda does. :D

AUSTRALIA!!

You know how it is my sole mission in my life is to go to college at Cambridge, visit Venice, and then move to Brisbane? AUSTRALIA IS CALLING ME. I have family over there, and I have only been to Australia once, but it's going to be my home quite soon. Count on it.

Well, I have created a song about it! XD It goes to the tune of "California" by Hawk Nelson. Woot!

I only have the chorus:

Let's pack up and move to Australia!
She's got lots of friends out there!
We'll hug koalas and pet lots of roos,
Look at hot guys and be in a good mood!

Isn't that awsome?!

Schemes...mwahahahahahahahaha!

On the bus coming home from school, me and my friend Haley have come up with two crazy schemes:

1) We were talking about how groovy it would be if Christian Siriano happened to drive past us (which is almost impossible, but still). And then we said, "Well, we can't smash through the window."

"Use the emergency window opener!"

"But wouldn't it hurt to jump onto the ground?"

"You know what, I'm going to start bringing a pillow in my bag" -BTW, Haley has a Michael Kors bag XD- "just to land on when I see Christian."

"And even though I don't like running, I'll run solely for that purpose."

"But what if he has a sun roof?"

"Then we'll jump into his car! Or if he doesn't have a sun roof, then we'll just ride on top of his car!"

"Hey, I've tried doing that before...not fun."

"It'll be just like a secret agents! You know how spies ride on top of moving cars?"

"YEAH!" ::laughlaughlaughlaughlaughlaughlaugh::

2) There is this perfect tree next to our neighborhood that looks like a "Simply Orange" tree (even though its magnolia) because the limbs are so suitable for climbing and there's this country ladder and everything. Haley says it bugs the crap out of her; she hates it for its perfection. So she came up with a plan to chop it down tonight (she's not going to do it of course).

"We'll sneak out of our houses-"

"And dress like ninjas!"

"Yeah! And we'll take saws. We could even call Krissy and Amanda and we'll trek down to the freakin perfect tree to saw it down! Yes!"

::makes a fist:: ::James Bond whisper:: "Let's go."

::laughlaughlaughlaughlaughlaugh::

Leap Year!

Well, this is quite dumb because I'm posting just cuz it's leap day. Well...woohoo!

Ha, it's like the WaMu commercial.

Selena Gomez vs. Miley Cyrus

You know how cheap Miley Cyrus is and how much of a fake she is? She's been pulling off "Vanessas" and becoming a porn star. Even if you tell this to her overpopulated crowd of fanatics, they won't believe you, so here's a good thing you can do to lure your child away from the virus: Selena Gomez!

I'm not saying that I support her or anything. First of all, she sings so much better! Miley's singing hurts my ears and I'm surprised because I haven't cleaned my ear in maybe three frickin months! Gomez can sing, and she hasn't shown any signs that she is "bad." Don't you just HATE Miley? Cuz I do.

G'day mates!

Eh, I dunno, I'm just posting for the heck of it.

THE SIRIANO HYPE.

Fall into the fever! I am a member of the Ferosh Four, a group of four girls at my school that is overly-obsessed with the designer Christian Siriano off of the show Project Runway. Here's our website: http://www.freewebs.com/thatsferosh

Take a look and realize what you're missing. :D