sweat mountain, covered in fog and a charming sunset. crappy picture with a phone camera, but it was too breathtaking to skip out on the opportunity.

i would also like to take a moment to comment on how much i really love my home state of georgia. this place is beautiful, and it automatically makes me homesick just thinking about leaving this place. it's not like i don't want to go exploring the world, because that is one of the things that i really want to do. i'm just proud to call this place my home, that's all. moonlight through the pines.

vampire weekend "horchata"
but, btw, two really great albums with really great beats you should totally check out are "You Are All I See" by Active Child
and "Laminate Pet Animal" by Snowmine. If you're into kind of ethereal type stuff. :)

Dear The Perfect Renee,
I am not afraid of you anymore. I remember lying on the floor, crying because I was so frustrated with my mediocrity. And of how much everyone wanted me to be you. I have no reason to be you, because unlike you, I was given the gift of Life, and unlike you, I am going to use it. Properly. I had forgotten that I was destined for greatness. Thanks for reminding me of who I really am and Who really is cheering me on.

Love always and forever, the Unperfect Renee P.

Dear everyone who has asked me about what college I want to go to/ What I want to become when I grow up in the past couple of months,

Don't ask me. I have an answer, but it's in my heart, and it's confidential. I don't want you to make decisions and judgments about me, based on how well your daughter/son did, or how well you did, because I am not them. I'm sorry I sound so arrogant, but I really don't like talking about these things. Love always and forever, Renee P.

Dad, I'm so, so sorry I was so cold to you on the phone.
If I could say this to you, I would: all this talk of making decisions about college scares the living daylight out of me. So much that I'm nearly apathetic about it all. I used to be vigilant about it, but now, when it actually matters, I can't put my feet in the water. I'm so, so sorry I'm a coward. Please teach me how to be courageous. Like you.

I love you and Mom and Rachel and Grandma unfathomably. I'm sorry I'm like this.

whenever i am reminded of my Lord's unfathomable Love, it's like rediscovering all over again. and again. and again. 

i just hope someday i can be in love with a man as purely and beautifully as Christ is in love with me.

it is in times like these that i find that i have on the most ridiculous looking studying outfit conceivable. :3