Dear The Perfect Renee,
I am not afraid of you anymore. I remember lying on the floor, crying because I was so frustrated with my mediocrity. And of how much everyone wanted me to be you. I have no reason to be you, because unlike you, I was given the gift of Life, and unlike you, I am going to use it. Properly. I had forgotten that I was destined for greatness. Thanks for reminding me of who I really am and Who really is cheering me on.

Love always and forever, the Unperfect Renee P.

Dear everyone who has asked me about what college I want to go to/ What I want to become when I grow up in the past couple of months,

Don't ask me. I have an answer, but it's in my heart, and it's confidential. I don't want you to make decisions and judgments about me, based on how well your daughter/son did, or how well you did, because I am not them. I'm sorry I sound so arrogant, but I really don't like talking about these things. Love always and forever, Renee P.

Dad, I'm so, so sorry I was so cold to you on the phone.
If I could say this to you, I would: all this talk of making decisions about college scares the living daylight out of me. So much that I'm nearly apathetic about it all. I used to be vigilant about it, but now, when it actually matters, I can't put my feet in the water. I'm so, so sorry I'm a coward. Please teach me how to be courageous. Like you.

I love you and Mom and Rachel and Grandma unfathomably. I'm sorry I'm like this.

whenever i am reminded of my Lord's unfathomable Love, it's like rediscovering all over again. and again. and again. 

i just hope someday i can be in love with a man as purely and beautifully as Christ is in love with me.

it is in times like these that i find that i have on the most ridiculous looking studying outfit conceivable. :3