i have been forced to run laps since the beginning of the semester because i'm in bpe. consequently, i have noticed my stamina increase and my weight decrease, but in addition, have noticed the decline of my appetite. while i recognize the benefits of such an effect, because it has led me to eating more healthily, and less, it is scaring the living daylights outta me. i cannot even remember the last time i turned away food because i wasn't in the mood for it; i say no to pie and cake because the thought of its sugary sweetness makes me want to gag; i had to force myself to eat at noon today because i didn't have an appetite, even though my stomach was raging. dear God.