emotional love...

...and something more sexual.

i've listened to the backstreet boys seriously ever since i can remember. i just don't tell everyone because people would make fun of me...:) but their archaic pop music is not so different from the pop music playing on the radios nowadays, except really that the themes they sing about, mainly love, are about the emotions, and not the sex. to be completely honest, i want sex sometime in my life. but the other 95% of my life that's spent not making love, i want it to be spent pleasing my husband because i love him enough to die for him. i want that so bad. bsb's songs encompass pretty much everything i want in a relationship. it fills my heart and my mind. our emotions are so human. we sometimes forget we have them, including me.

m83's music is...indescribably good. i can't tell you why specifically, but i feel energized and peaceful at the same time? when i listen to it. i found them a while ago, but never really got into them because i was just getting into "indie music," and i wasn't accustomed to different sounds yet, if you understand me at all. but now they seem like everything and all of it and the past and the present of what my poor, diminished teenage self wants. i usually skip the songs related to bodies, sex, etc. but the song "skin of the night" is so transparent that i'm drawn to it like it was lifeblood or something. isn't the song grand, just grand?