DIARY:

to be honest, i'm a little hesitant to be writing a diary entry on a pretty [public] blog, but sometimes, it's just hard to really keep it all to myself. i was scrolling down my facebook home page this afternoon, just as i normally do. i noticed all the statuses people were posting and thought to myself, "okay, seriously? i don't care if you're hanging out with such and such. write a status with...meaning." this has been my mindset ever since i could remember. the whole, "i'm superior to you, meaning the things i do, the statuses i post, my mindset is better than yours."

but certain events happened yesterday that got me thinking: everything that i say/write is done in sincerity. everything i say/write, i want someone to take seriously. i want them to take it, laugh at it, think about it, elaborate on it. anything. because i wouldn't bother spitting something out of my mouth if i didn't want that, right? i don't want someone to ignore it, turn it around and make fun of me for it...

insult me for it.

so i scrolled down my facebook again, and eyed the statuses people posted, and reminded myself that everyone in this world wants someone to acknowledge who they are/what they stand for. there's something important to everyone in the world, and it's hardly fair if i treat that something important as if it wasn't. i don't want someone to say, "whatever," or "really?" if i say, "i won an award!" or "i'm going to the mall with my friends!"

because you're important to me. i just wanted to let you know.

-- renee