i fear the the worst has come.

the worst? what is the worst, you say?

i live for no nothing any more. my life has come to a complete standstill because i give up. i don't feel like fighting for that grip anymore. i'm tired and lazy and my no-care attitude has climbed. WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME?

well...
i'm tired about me and matt. i've worked so hard, i'm nearly at the climax...but i haven't got the strength to lug my body those last couple meters up to the peak. i don't care and hardly even talked to him today. maybe it's just today.

i feel like my life is just another teenage cliché. i go to school, come home, do homework, get online and talk with my teenage crush and my bffs, go to sleep. man. don't you wish you could just lift yourself up out of this thing?

holy crud. that reminds me. the Bible! duhhhhh.
i need to get back into the routine with my Bible. i feel uber stupido now. see, blogging really helps. :D

it seemed like before this, i've had this ever-constant battle going on inside of my brain, this little thing going on between what my conscience, what the Holy Spirit, and what the devil is telling me, like that kronk thing with the devil on one shoulder and the angel on the other?

it feels like, "just leave me alone, will you?" (btw, that heavily reminds me of the song (*fin) by anberlin, which is an incredible song, fyi). but i know i can't. i'll have to keep this up. it's a defensive war. i am going to win.

the devil is stupid. >:D

EDIT: PRAISE YE THE LORD.

i just found out that renee yohe, the girl that inspired the entire thing for twloha has given up alcoholism and turned to sobriety BECAUSE of her discovery in Christ Jesus. she said so! oh God, thank You for being the Almighty. i love You so much. thank You, thank You, thank You.