LORD, I'M SORRY I AM A SINNER. I NEVER MEANT TO HURT YOU.
THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME SO MUCH.

EASTER 2009//ANNIVERSARY OF ONE OF THE GREATEST DAYS IN HISTORY.

forget the former madness! there's no comparison to a louboutin heel. make you feel like queen of the world/ klutz of the universe.

took a trip to lenox square today. hit nearly every cool store, like neiman marcus and urban outfitters and tried on all sorts of shoes, including valentino, dior, chanel, louboutin...definition of amazing.

i actually hate all time low.
no, actually, i can't get enough of them.
no, wait, i semi-can't-not-should-maybe-wait-what?

//so i used to actually be dead set on atl, like i couldn't get enough of gaskarth's antics at the beginning of the year (that is...august-october). and now, i kind of want to smash everything that involves them underneath my shoe. because...i love them. yet i hate them. and i hate them for it.
??

//speaking of which, their new song. it sounds a lot like a poem gaskarth wrote a while ago called 'manage me.' it was the most amazing thing i have ever read in my entire life. but then this song sounds like it, but has a completely new meaning. sounds like they yelled, "we're wasted!"


//concerning the violent curse they spontaneously added to "weightless" that they never have before. i was perfectly fine with no fu**ing, thanks.

i dunno. haircut time? summer's just around the corner (even though, i swear it, it snowed two days ago, and today, it's the balmiest day in forever) and i don't really like the longishness of my hair anyways. so i was browsing around and found that i like taylor momsen's new haircut.

maybe it'll work out for me. and maybe it'll turn out to be the most ugly thing that's ever graced my scalp. x)

okay, so what's this madness?

really? really? what the heck is this, making a movie about, what, i don't even know. some say it's the end of the world, some say it's the rapture, people can't even make up their minds on what 2012 is all about anyway. i think that's telling us that what we see here is none other then human curiosity. all this talk about the world ending is bee ess.

okay, so what's this madness?

i'm dogsitting tommy's dog while they're away. i was so thrilled because i had never done it before and i was going to make the house look grand for their homecoming. but, oi. it keeps me busy. they come home today. i had better check on the house one last time.

okay, so what's this madness?

you know whenever you finish a bigbig project, you feel so proud of yourself and want to hug everyone in sight? well, maybe not, but you get my drift. i finally finished all the crazy swirls and complex lettering for the maine's 'the way we talk' EP cover. it took me like a couple of hours, and i signed my name on it and everything. but there's nothing. no whoopee's or yippee-ki-yays. i finished it. i hope when someone sees it and tells me how they feel about it i'll get the oomph.

// i also changed the skin of the blog to just a normal white. i'll miss relient k. but with that template, i couldn't post pictures or have comments. but too be sure, i still relient k as if it were my own leg (perhaps more). :)

<< have you ever noticed how stupidly complex some album art really is? // currently, i am in the mood for sleep. but this post first.

so, i started drawing this over the summer and then haley went berserk because if i finished it, it would look uber boss, you know? well, i said i would, but never really got the time to, until today, when haley finally persuaded me to pick it up and work on it again.

EXTREMELY TEDIOUS.

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spring break. holy week. hm...
i have virtually nothing to do and am very surprised that i am bored. i am one of the few that always have something to do, but not this week. i am ready to kill myself out of boredom. O_O

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i was browsing through parker young's music selection to listen to, and i came upon M83. it is actually some pretty ace stuff, if i should say so myself. i normally don't listen to synthrock, but i really do like it. i kind of want to transform myself into this person that is with it but prefers not to be, you know? parker's one of them. it's very inspiring.

how boss is revelation?

I N C R E D I B L E + A D D I C T I V E
well, yes, i suppose the last book of the Bible, but what i'm talking about is like, "ohhhhh, i get it!"

amanda showed me the song "unbreakable" by fireflight awhile ago, and i relistened to it today out of some reason that my mind remembered that i should go back and actually listenlisten to it, you know? i find it very catchy and very strong. dawn's voice is...entrancing.

i looked up the lyrics, and i don't know if it's me, because it probably is (that i somehow get emotional easily; my future husband won't appreciate that very much, so apologies in advance), but i had to hold back a bit of that lump in my throat from how i realize that i can't take control, that everything's in God's hands and He's got it going on. He's going to make it for you, you put your life in His hands and He'll take you there for you.

B E A U T I F U L +
H E A R T B R E A K I N G
i also realize how fear really is a binding, imprisoning thing. man. it seems like such an insubstantial thing when used in words, but...is kind of is a material. it's real. and it's going to be hard. God's love is liberating. i need to find it.