DIARY:

to be honest, i'm a little hesitant to be writing a diary entry on a pretty [public] blog, but sometimes, it's just hard to really keep it all to myself. i was scrolling down my facebook home page this afternoon, just as i normally do. i noticed all the statuses people were posting and thought to myself, "okay, seriously? i don't care if you're hanging out with such and such. write a status with...meaning." this has been my mindset ever since i could remember. the whole, "i'm superior to you, meaning the things i do, the statuses i post, my mindset is better than yours."

but certain events happened yesterday that got me thinking: everything that i say/write is done in sincerity. everything i say/write, i want someone to take seriously. i want them to take it, laugh at it, think about it, elaborate on it. anything. because i wouldn't bother spitting something out of my mouth if i didn't want that, right? i don't want someone to ignore it, turn it around and make fun of me for it...

insult me for it.

so i scrolled down my facebook again, and eyed the statuses people posted, and reminded myself that everyone in this world wants someone to acknowledge who they are/what they stand for. there's something important to everyone in the world, and it's hardly fair if i treat that something important as if it wasn't. i don't want someone to say, "whatever," or "really?" if i say, "i won an award!" or "i'm going to the mall with my friends!"

because you're important to me. i just wanted to let you know.

-- renee

{the barrier btwn who i am and who i want to be}
//a lot of things have happened in the past couple of days, of which you should be aware: i've eloped to nicaragua, i've walked the runway, and i've raved. (only one of these things are literal, guess which...)

//my friends are crazy talented + i love them so much. sunday, 5/23, a little girl named haley displayed a beautiful work of art on a catwalk, of which i was so privileged to model. amazing pictures by amanda.

incredible detail of the dress.

//after the show, male model max and i did a stupid little dance party (mock rave) with blue lights behind the curtains. (oh, and shhh, don't tell anyone, but my fiance and i are not actually engaged. and we're still in america.) yesterday was a day of rest, while today was spent with my friends. we took a long walk to target, played with babies, and took photographs. we're awesome. :D

2 MORE DAYS OF SCHU-OOL, 2 MORE DAYS OF SCHU-OOL!!!

/informative.

//final exams are so outlandishly and stupidly stupid that if it were a baby, i would slap it. sorry to every person who told me not to slap babies.

//we got our journals from literature class back today. we did some "analytical" work for some of the books we read, including anthem, the hunger games, and to kill a mockingbird, don't laugh at the hunger games, my teacher likes to give fun stuff to read, ok. :

30 Things That I Like.

1. being happy

2. peace

3. nutella

4. james stewart

5. italian food

6. mercy/forgiveness

7. festivals + celebrations

8. the pursuit of knowledge

9. chick flicks

10. playing the flute

11. feeling accomplished

12. hipsters from florida (!)

13. childhood innocence

14. outlandishly nice people

15. Christ's love

16. making someone's day

17. corny jokes

18. student writing

19. cycling

20. softball

21. making new friends

22. pleasant smells

23. romantic literature

24. symmetry

25. hong kong

26. understanding things after being confused

27. staying in my pajamas

28. art with a meaning

29. music lyrics

30. the clean feeling after brushing your teeth

olafur arnalds

puts you on camera.

though he defines his music as 'classical,' it's not the typical beethoven or bach with the jumpy harpsichord and whatever 15th century knickknacks they put in music back then. his music is achingly beautiful, so much that i feel that when i listen to it, i feel like i'm in a video montage in an epic film, like storytelling.

beautiful samples found at his myspace.

awesome stuff coming from iceland these days.

why am i blogging when i should be in bed for a final tomorrow? i have no idea.

[4] more days of school.

a m u s i c a l m a s t e r m i n d.

{album streaming in entirety here.}

i've only recently started looking into the lead singer of sigur ros' solo project, but i simply cannot imagine how i could have conceived music before listening to jonsi. his music is utterly ethereal and wondrous, a gift. when i listen to it, i feel like i'm weightless or something.

{smell summer, so sweet so close.}
i thought i would leave a little blog about summer before we brace ourselves for finals week.

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PICK UP LINE #54: MY LOVE FOR YOU IS LIKE DIARRHEA. I JUST CAN'T HOLD IT IN.

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new playlist from parker young! ka-ka-ching!

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awesome day today. school spent getting awards and signing yearbooks. a friday night consisting of a fabulous school production of 'grease' and taco bell with amanda and a new friend, jordan. he's so adorable. :D