i just realized that my room is littered with clothes, world history notes, and sheet music. how coincidental it is that the majority of my time is spent on these things.

the next two days shall be interesting. lots of food and partying. don't mind it in the least.

i have a spontaneous urge to go shoe shopping. my dire craving to have an unexplainable amount of footware is beginning to become unhealthy.

hugh dancy: his eyes...omg.

HOW MANY WOMEN DOES IT TAKE TO MAKE A SANDWICH? WAIT! WHY IS SHE SCREWING IN LIGHTBULBS WHEN SHE'S SUPPOSED TO BE MAKIN' ME A SAMMICH?

{dismantle.repair by anberlin}

call this a prelude to lifetime of you.

i am the patron saint of lost causes.

hands, like secrets, are the hardest thing to keep from you.

it's not that i keep hanging on. i'm never letting go.

i'm still waiting for the day that logan lerman loses his shirt forever. whut.

HOW DO YOU KILL AN ELEPHANT?

UH...

WITH AN ELEPHANT GUN. HOW DO YOU KILL A BLUE ELEPHANT?

...WITH AN ELEPHANT GUN?

NO! WITH A BLUE ELEPHANT GUN. HOW DO YOU KILL A RED ELEPHANT?

WITH A RED ELEPHANT GUN?

NO! YOU CHOKE IT UNTIL IT'S BLUE, THEN SHOOT IT WITH A BLUE ELEPHANT GUN. HOW DO YOU KILL A PURPLE ELEPHANT?

YOU CHOKE IT UNTIL IT'S BLUE, THEN SHOOT IT WITH A BLUE ELEPHANT GUN.

OH MY FREAKING CHEESE, THERE ARE NO SUCH THINGS AS PURPLE ELEPHANTS!

C A U T I O N

THIS VIDEO MAY MAKE YOUR HEAD EXPLODE FROM AWESOME.

C A L O D A I S

OVER THE SUMMER, I WAS INSPIRED TO CREATE A COSMETIC LINE, WHICH I NAMED 'CALODAIS,' (I.E. 'CAL-OH-DAY') SOME NAME I MADE UP. IT WAS REALLY TACKY AT FIRST, AND STILL IS, TO AN EXTREMELY LARGE DEGREE ( XD ), BUT ITS DEVELOPMENT HAS SLOWLY PROGRESSED...

THE FIRST REASON I CREATED CALODAIS WAS BECAUSE THERE NEEDED TO BE A COSMETIC LINE THAT MADE LEGIT 'GUYLINER' FOR EMO GUYS LIKE PETE WENTZ WHO HAVE TO BUY WOMAN BRANDS. NOW I FIGURED GIRLS WOULD LIKE SOME STUFF FROM CALODAIS TOO. SO I DEVELOPED WOMEN COSMETICS AND BODY PRODUCTS, AND THE CAMPAIGN 'BODY: OUR MOST VALUABLE POSSESSION.'

I AM SO SMURT!!1!!ELEVEN!

...NO.

BUT I'M SERIOUS. IF I COULD SOMEHOW EXPAND THIS IDEA INTO THE REAL DEAL, THAT WOULD MAKE MY LIFE. SO THEN I SPENT THE PAST THREE OR SO HOURS DRAWING THIS PICTURE ON PHOTOSHOP BECAUSE, I MEAN, WHO'S REALLY THAT GOOD AT PERSPECTIVE?

the big hexagon is the lid; the small hexagon is the bottom. the side view of the package has a marbled yellow base and a black lid. i suppose if the fragrance changed, to say grapefruit or strawberries, then the color of the base would change accordingly. the top isn't colored because i was too tired. :P

the entire thing is a crude copy, so obviously there's HUUUUUUUUUUUUGE room for development. haha

the separate triangles on the lid i initally figured would be separate stickers, but then that would be such a pain the butt to stick on, so...

the bottom triangle, with the upside-down english, was initially meant to be japanese, but i don't have japanse characters on my computer. so just pretend. :]

//began watching to kill a mockingbird movie in class today; i can't say i miss old hollywood because i wasn't alive when it was around, but i wish its elegance was still present nowadays. my lit. class is planning on having a tkm party next thursday where we can dress up as a character from the book, bring in food, and participate in a 'mystery' game. i am so stoked.

THURSDAY, THURSDAY, THURSDAY IS MY FAVORITE DAY...


I LEFT SCHOOL EARLY TODAY TO GO TO THE DOCTOR'S FOR A YEARLY PHYSICAL. I WAS PRETTY CHILL ABOUT IT, UNTIL THEY ANNOUNCED, 'SORRY, WE HAVE NO WOMAN DOCTORS IN TODAY, YOUR BODY WILL BE CHECKED OUT BY A GUY.' YEAH, UM, NO OFFENSE TO THE MALE RACE, BUT I PERSONALLY, AS A GIRL, DON'T LIKE THEM POKING AND PRODDING MY BODY KTHNX. :|

TOMORROW IS FRIDAY! THAT MEANS 20 MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL. LEGIT.

SOUNDTRACK OF THE WEEK: BACKSTREET BOYS. HAHAHAHAHA, I KNOW, WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME...

PLANNING ON GOING 'VINTAGE' SHOPPING WITH KAYLIE ON SATURDAY, SHOULD BE A DISH (THOUGH I DON'T REALLY KNOW HOW TO DO THAT....SHHH). AND I WROTE A FREAKING AWESOME STORY DURING FRENCH WHILE I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE WORKING ON VOCABULARY, BUT THEN I LOST THAT PIECE OF PAPER. I THINK GOD'S TELLING ME TO PAY ATTENTION IN CLASS.

SPEAKING OF PAYING ATTENTION IN CLASS...IN LITERATURE, I WAS ABLE TO, FOR THE SIX OR SO WEEKS I USED TO SIT THERE, FALL ASLEEP BECAUSE I WAS IN THE WAY BACK. I'M PRETTY SURE MY TEACHER HAD SUSPICIONS, SO NOW I'M SERIOUSLY AT THE VERY FRONT. VERY FRONT.


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UPPING THE TESTOSTERONE

PIANO IMPROVISATION

I LOL'D

O M E L E T T E.

...and justin timberlake, i believe.
// the whole 'life st. analogy,' written by none other than a sick muse by the name of camille young, is amazing. it's really cool to see some of the smartest things going on in society are performed by the youngest people.

//WHO'S STOKED OUT OF THEIR MIND FOR THE NEW ANBERLIN ALBUM? PICK ME!!!!

//i like to dress up nice. this task has proved impossible the past couple of days, and it's eating me. i just don't have the time/motivation/insight to do so anymore. it's a little disheartening.

God, i need You so bad these next few weeks for strength, courage, and wisdom. grant me Your grace and power, and i cannot fail.

i have really only one thing to say: 1 corinthians chapter 4.
the entire thing. it gives me chills, makes me tear, makes me ache for God. <3

i was walking around today in my kitchen just after i had eaten a big lunch, and i felt this clawing craving in the top part of my chest, like in my ribs, and i thought i was hungry, but i couldn't identify that craving with hunger...i just ate lunch, i wasn't hungry. but it was really starting to bother me. what was it? i picked up my Bible, flipped to 1 Corinthians, and endulged. and it was all gone, just like that, poof, vanished. it's incredible.

guess who took a 15-hr "nap" last night? me. :) that's like, two nights worth of good sleep to bounce off my all-nighter the previous day. now my pro chef-forward sister is making meringue cookies while blasting fleetwood mac + anyone who reads this gets a coupon for a cookie from me on monday. :D

i see God working all around me.

it brings chills + a light heart.

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//i can't believe it's already thursday; it seems like yesterday that the week was just beginning. after this week, only FIVE MORE WEEKS. spring fever has got me so bad, let me tell you.

i've had a recent 8th grade music revival (i.e., all time low, mayday parade...), which gives me plenty of stuff to sing to in the shower.

this one is for listening purposes only (put on the earphones and listen to gaskarth's amazing voice...)

//i honestly have nothing to blog about. i haven't been doing anything, i haven't found new music, i haven't been anticipating anything.

nothing at all. o_-

"你好我的名字是renee" << this means 'my name is renee', apparently.

short blog today because it's ten o' clock at night and if i don't sleep soon, i will pass out.

by request of cason m., i will be blogging what i can in mandarin chinese.

some days, i feel kind of crummy. but spiritually, i feel like i'm on fire for Christ. i've just been sitting at home this entire week. we worship such a powerful God.

expensive french fashions for little people. new inspiration for dressing up next week!

"When I consider your heavans, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him? You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned him with glory and honor. You made him ruler over the works of your hands; you put everything under his feet..." Psalms 8v3-6

you know, when i sorta think about it, it's a blessing to belong to a family that loves to cook!

//this is me preparing to chop my finger off as i wage war against a stick of sugar cane. (eventually the task was taken over by papa.)

//went to the farmer's market today, and met up with the biggest assortment of eggplants i ever did see.

//a beautiful sandwich + a very pretty tomato and avocado.

//my family is preparing to go to calhoun and dalton tomorrow for our WEEKEND GETAWAY AS YUMMY AS MY FAGEETA WAHOO to take some pictures of native american historical sites, which i look forward to. i can't believe it's already friday and there are only two days left of spring break. sad face.

the more i read the Holy Bible, the more i recognize the really pretty language going on within it. every line seems to be so carefully constructed, and it's not weird to me to fall in love with it. everything the Bible says is so wonderful to me.

le tournament...!

i saw "the tournament" two nights ago, and my conclusion was that it was a) outlandishly gruesome and b) freaking awesome. the whole time i was about to puke from the amount of blood/guts/cruelty, but at the same time, was enthralled by all of the parkour action and car chases and whatever. this kind of gives me something to speculate upon about how 'the hunger games' movie is going to turn out. a) outlandishly gruesome and b) freaking awesome. (i hope)

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A. my mom, sister, and grandma, and i went on loooooooooooong walk at the chattahoochee nature trail yesterday. (did i lose any weight???)

B. i have identified my weaknesses as 1) boys that give me attention, 2) shoes, and 3) boys crying/showing legit signs of sadness (but please, don't hit a guy in front of me to make him start crying if you need something from me)

C. chick-fil-a's peach milkshakes are the bee's knees please.

D. why do seagulls live by the sea? 'cause if they lives by the bay they'd be bagels. AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

E. do you know what also cracks me up every time? people who are sarcastic 90% of the time. now, if you actually hang around that person, it gets really frustrating after a while, but looking at it from a third part perspective, i.e., watching that character on tv, you laugh every time. at least i do. :B

//these are not just beautiful, massive clouds of dust floating in oblivion. they are first and foremostly God's creation.

//as well as you and i. God loves you more than all of those shining stars, beautiful bouts of light, spheres of dust, that are perfect + conscienceless. God loves you enough to die for you. God loves you more than you could ever conceive. more than the depths of the universe.

i can't stop seeing God in everything that i see. His creation is so beautiful.
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because spring break has been somewhat merciful to me this year, i have been able to find things to do besides sitting on the floor for hours on end, bored the heck outta my mind. i was on mibba, a creative writing site, and i was shifting thru the pages of stories after more stories. all the same: poorly-written fanfics about justin bieber/alex gaskarth, until i stumbled across a conglomerate (i.e., combo) of letters written by about five dozen different writers across the site to various unknowns. the whole concept is so devious, mysterious, and heavy. and yet, kind of cool. here is the link, but you need an account to read.
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i saw a show on tv tonight about lovers in the holocaust. i cried so bad! because of course it isn't just the turmoil about worrying about your significant other, but also about the love you have for your family and your country, all being torn apart by war. it's so sad. but it ended very happily. :D

recent musings of a life by renee p.
c'est lundi, 5 avril 2010.

HELLO I THOUGHT I'D GREET EVERYONE WITH A HUGE SCREAM IN EVERYONE'S EARS BECAUSE I HAVEN'T BLOGGED IN ABOUT...3? DAYS. CANNOT REMEMBER, DOESN'T MATTER!

so, what's actually been goin' on, considering that i haven't been able to blog? my body is utterly fatigued from the semester, and it wants to go on unplanned (embarrassing, by the way) bouts of sleep every time it can. at least it's spring break so that i can do that, because if it weren't, i'd be falling asleep in just about every class. so i've been sleeping. AND i've been going to plenty of services for Holy Week. Jesus, our Lord and Savior, has risen and is alive.

i SO want to see this film it's not even funny. it's a little related to the hunger games, in fact, which is a little weird.

i was looking up things related to the hunger games because i'm nerdy and when i do something i usually 'wikipedia' it, and i found a book by stephen king that sounds super-interesting, called 'the walk.' check it out, i gotta go get it.

grant has filled me in on what he wanted me to post.
today, i knocked over a vial of corn oil in chem today and it fell to the floor. it shattered. no one got hurt, but...why do i always break stuff in that poor class?

and i showed him something i wrote, and he wants me to put it here:

i'm confused at this conclusion you arrived.
after all, i came to the woods to suck the marrow out of life.
my abysmal heart bleeds tears.
i could paint the ceiling of the sistine chapel, after all, with the colors of my "feelings." never come to the woods again, because we both known what's going to happen if that happens.
jou're in a fist fight with a fog, baby.
don't get hurt.
and don't punch holes through my heart.
anymore.
never again.
yours, sabine.

...when i only want for you to pull over and hold me till i can't remember my own name...
yesterday was the "get-over-the-hill" day. what a grudging climb. today, i'm not only on my way to friday, but the view from today was one of the most beautiful i've seen in a long time. this morning, the sky was in a cosmic equilibrium: the blood-red sun on one side of the mountain, and the translucent moon on the other side. so gorgeous, so gorgeous.

//merry april foolishness day. happy birthday fred + george weasley.

//my artist suggestion of the week: joanna newsom. a breath of fresh air to all of the same old acoustic music i listen to all the time. the greatest smell in the entire universe? marc jacobs daisy + bath and body works' vanilla currant. i put on perfume this morning, then realized my skin was dry, and used b&bw lotion. turns out the mixture was the best thing i have ever done.

//grant wanted me to blog about something, but i can't remember what that was. so i'll just shout out to grant + hopefully he'll remind me of what it was he wanted me to blog...

"Beneath this mask there is more than flesh. Beneath this mask is an idea, Mr. Cready, and ideas are bulletproof." -V, V for Vendetta