//i am so epically tired and aching. but if someone were to tell me there was an extension to band camp right now, i would go. no hesitations. "1, 2, 3, halfway, 5...toe! 1 cross 2, 3..." is still stuck in my head. did i tell you on tuesday night i had a dream about band? weird.

//so yeah. i'm a freshman now.

"what?"
"i learned it at band camp."alalalatoday-thurslalalala.

//this entire summer, the sky has been like this. this isn't very georgian...

//i haven't been obsessed with icons in, like, forever, man. i have other things to do, but would rather make icons first. :D

"thank You for the soldiers and the brave people who risk their lives every day so that we may live free. thank You for this country, thank You that we may be able to live free. thank You."

HPPY MMRL DY VRYBDY :D

//and then...my teenage antics. yesterday, when me mum was going to get mail at the ups office, a couple who were about 50 and looked unmarried climbed into their BMW and began to back out. i look away. look again. they're making out. O_____________________________O

hey, i'm not going to a lake!
f'real, like 3/10 people from our grade half booked this town and headed towards their lakehouse or are going jetskiing on the lake or in some form or another are spending the early bits of their vacation beside fresh water. whaaaaaaaaaat.
no furbies on the plane?!
i haven't seen this one yet. man, i wish i could be able to hug them until they begged me to let go. speaking of which, i showed benjamin j. (*fin), but i'm not sure if he's heard it yet. he needs to or he'll never experience words of such wisdom.

don't you wish dudes this handsome sang "can't take my eyes off you" to you?
first day of summer. wasn't too eventful, but i went to the library and read the first few pages of gossip girl (incredibly boring, shockingly) and i got the new young bond book, double or die. >>i forgot to give mrs. albertson back her copy of the clique. now i won't ever be able to. >>rookie camp is next week. i can't wait. >>i saw 10 things i hate about you. loved it, wish i had a man like patrick verona. >>went to bed last night feeling like i had been harry potter, convulsing in one of his scar-pain fits. >>one of tickle me pink's members died. i don't know how long ago, but i don't want to look into it. it will make me sad. >>parker young has grown a mexi-stash. i love that man so much; he always makes me laugh out loud. >>summer pulsates with opportunity.

THE EIGHTH GRADE FORMAL. EVERYTHING WOULD HAVE BEEN PERFECT IF PARKER YOUNG DID THE DJING AND MY SWEATING WASN'T SO PUBESCENT. XD

selena and drew. i wanted to kill selena because she was too pretty to grace my presence.

this is like a parker young shot. i love this. vinnie and timmy's hand.

all of us! madame israel took this for us; we are all so happy.

overhead shot of entire cafeteria.

indie shots. i want to stab cassadi in the face because she doesn't stop being beautiful.

my dates. :D

amanda's indie shot. she looks like a doll. :3

my indie shot. i don't think i look indie enough. i disgrace parker.

juliana's indie shot. she looks sly and seductive. xD

juliana did her hair herself!

my friends come first class.

PHOTOGRAPHS BY AMANDA. SHE'S GETTING AS GOOD AS PARKER YOUNG, THAT LITTLE FUTURE HUBBY OF MINE. :3

my best friends won the best picture oscar!!!!!!

we're "raising the bar."

amanda's somewhat "indie" shot of tommy taking a pose at bruster's.

this, i believe, is the only good picture of me out of them all. i smile freakishly.

"five dollah."

the boy band pictures. jonathan, on the far right, makes me laugh.

speaking of parker, this song amanda found reminds me of him:

new leaf. tonight was the best one in who knows how long.
my best friends' imovie won best picture at the film festival.
ice cream afterwards. and you can imagine all the things in between.

really sick of doing stuff to make other ppl happy for once im gonna do stuff that makes me happy so ima cuss if i want, ima wear wat i want, i dnt care if i dnt reperesent myself as a "proper young lady" im gonna not eat if i dnt want to it dsnt mean ima go anorexic ppl i can get my nose piereced if i want (julia) im so sick of pleasing otha ppl its about me know

thank you, christina. do whatever you want to, eh?
okay. so nothing really matters anymore, right, that there's no room for improvement. you're absolutely perfect and whatever you do has gotta be the right thing to do. thank you.

JRNL.
i'm tired, so i don't feel like making this blog post all too spiffeh.
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today was a real cliché'd bad monday. woke up feeling like a mess, took forever to get ready, still had to make food for french...
etc. banged my head against the locker, i felt very uncomfortable and fat in my clothes, our rocket for science is getting an 89, and then haley goes on to tell me her day was terrible too. oi.
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it feels like freaking fall/winter here. and it's may. i won't surprised if it starts snowing. the weather has plunged to like 50 degrees and the school hallways smelled like that wintry cinnamon apple stuff that's oriented with cold weater AND there were like, christmas lights on the trees next to t.j. maxx. wtheck?
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ANDY AND DIANA ARE NOT PROUD PARENTS OF ELIJAH DAVID! ALIFNAOEWIGNARENG.
ahhh, the miracle of life. praise be to God.
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LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL:
tuesday: first day of exams. social studies & science. film festival @ 7...i think.
wednesday: second day of exams. l.a. & math.
thursday: last day of exams. french. 8th grade formal & possibility of sleepover...?
friday: talent show, yearbooks, awards, over. done. fin.
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why does deciding on a career have to be so stupidly difficult? hate. it's emanating from my pores.
and you know what else makes me hate? when people publicly announce their hate for religion. okay, dude, i really don't like anything but christianity, right, since i happen to be one? but dude, don't go all over and say that you absolutely hate christianity. i don't think that since you are a hindu or muslim that you should die, and certainly would not announce that to the world even if i did regardless. it's not hate as much as it is annoyance.
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christina aguilera isn't bad. i like her stuff, strangely enough. i remember 'genie in a bottle.' oldie, but goodie.

I HAVE HERPES.

:o

no homework. do i sense the beginning of summer?
could middle school finally be over? holy freaking crap, it almost is!

//this picture of margot fonteyn is so pretty. do you know who else is pretty? richard beymer aka peter van daan in the movie. if i ever met someone so classically handsome as that, i'd leap onto him. (not literally...)

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I GOT A NEW BATCH OF DRAWING PENCILS!:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

//peter van daan in the movie is über hot. o.o

//oheffemell. that's pete young, not parker. *headdesk*

dude. school is over in two weeks. liberation. freedom. summer.


//i like these guys. they sound like the uk version of all time low and blink-182.

WARNING: PERSONAL OPINIONS AND VIEWPOINTS.
it's got me thinking. i know this is such a horrible subject, and i don't really like thinking about it, but...it's just...i don't really know. some want to bring about a premature death. it just takes away so much from everything, you know? like you brought half of everyone/everything you inspired with you to the grave and those who have been robbed never fully heal. i dunno if i could understand those who don't have anything and believe their life is a waste, but i could never understand those who belong to something, such as a family, and have people who rely on them be drenched in unbelievable grief because of you and your selfish desire to be dead. man...i feel like a terrible person.

i want to understand what goes through them everyday and why they decided that certain fate. i want to heal them, i want to be able to cry their tears and bear their weight. i want to lift their burdens and i want to wrap them in my arms. i want to reassure them that i could be there for them, even though everything they knew wasn't.

dear mr. gaskarth, i am unbearably sorry too. i wish i could understand. i am so, so sorry.
with all sincere and due respect, renee p.

IT'S STORYTIME, KIDDIES! - ahhh...puberty.
so language is studying the diary of anne frank, so all of the classes are acting out the play by goodrich and hackett. we completed act I today, so tomorrow we shall be continuing onto act II. so, for act II, the actors who had roles in the first act had an opportunity to change their role, if they wanted to and a person who didn't get to act could get their part. well, no one really wanted to change, except when mrs. hartnett called out, "okay...peter. does anyone want to take jacob's spot?" and you can see jacob, who evidently doesn't like acting much, looking like he's praying for someone to take his part. then mrs. h adds, "ooh, peter, you've got a love scene coming on!" and we all kind of chuckle/giggle, but then taylor raises his hand, and then...mass hysterics forge through the entire classroom.

"what?!"
"taylor, you would!"
"ooh-la-la, taylor!"
"AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA."

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and i got a spiffy new watch too. it's white and matches well with my cellular telephone. james- bond- looking gadget #2.
+ it's called 'ironman' (uber schveeet) and it's a triathlon watch (which is 1/3 cycling...uber schveeeet).

and now, we pause for a moment of wise words from master renee herself:




















DON'T PUT ZIT CREAM ON YOUR BACK.
gives you itchy rash.

CLEAN.i dunno, but i feel so proud of myself for cleaning my bathroom. it's like unnaturally squeaky shiny now and i feel so accomplished.
IDIOT SLEEPOVER.oi...i miss those freaking things so bad. i read on haley's blog about one of them the other day, and i almost cried. i don't think we've had one since last summer. we almost had one last night, but then i couldn't because of something today, but it got cancelled, so i'm completely free. why, oh why...
BA-BOOM.not much to blog about, so...i suppose i shall post the weather forecast for the next three days: thunderstorms.
80'S SYNTH. i like this song, so i though i would share it with you.

BAM-BAM.
thunder pwns again. schveeeet.
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def. of awesome.

so last night at the mall and haley, amanda, daniel, jonathan, and i went to sephora, and there, we found a makeup bit called the 'orgasm collection'. though extremely disgusting, daniel took a picture of it and posted it on facebook. pfshaha.
and then we ate dinner and all five of us shoved into one photobooth to take pictures. ahh, good times.

it's my dog, flint's, birthday. she be 5.
so my best friend has contracted herself a boyfriend. they go on their first date tonight.
how romantic: teenage getaway to the local mall. hehe.
i will probably have to go with them, since her mammi doesn't want her going without someone she has known for quite a while. haley i think is going, and so is daniel.
jonathan-and-amanda! ooh la la! btw, i approve.

ihateyouihateyouihateyou.